I'm 14 years old and it seems like everyone has already started. My friends and I are on a youth group trip to the beach. We've been having a blast playing in the water, sunning on the beach, chasing boys and just hanging out.
Yesterday, the last day of the trip, "it" came. All of a sudden I had spotting in my panties. I felt embarrased. I wasn't really sure who to tell or what exactly to do. I mean, I know about periods, I read the book my mom left lying around. I've listened to my girlfriends talking about their periods. Yet, now it's me. I'm not sure if I am ready for this. I am not sure I really know what it all means. I don't really understand my body at all.
Well, I 'fessed up to a friend and borrowed a pad. We're headed back home today.
That night....
I didn't tell my mom and then, doing the laundry, she found my panties with the stain. When she brought it up, I felt worse. I think she might have been embarrased or maybe just real matter of fact. She told me where my older sister kept the pads. I feel like I've done something wrong. Like "it" is a bad thing. Do the other girls feel this way? Is this normal? Why do I feel this way? I don't understand.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Thursday, January 4, 2007
Pregnant at 9
When I was nine years old I thought for sure I was pregnant.
That day I had a feeling of sickness during the train ride to the hot springs and while my grandparents went on to soak in the pools, I took a walk by myself to consider my situation.
My period had not arrived for a long time, the nausea thing was not going away, there was something different, off. Like what women said they felt when they were like I was.
Pregnant for sure, I knew it. I figured I would be a great mom,
I loved playing with dolls and babies. No, I was not going to tell anyone that day, I concluded.
My belly would show and then they would know.
Good thing too because off course I was not even close to being pregnant, now I know.
My first period was one little spot of blood about 3 months earlier and then nothing.
I was having my first premenstrual experience, a shift in hormones, not a pregnancy, and since I sure did not know what was going on, I assumed that no period was a pregnancy, never mind that I was a virgin. I was nine and my periods had began light and infrequent. But before they got going regular I experienced nausea, headaches and confusing feelings before menstruation.
What was your first year of periods like? what happen?
Were you ready or did you think you were pregnant like me?
I can not possibly be the only girl that this happened to.
Best stupid than real because a pregnancy at nine is nothing to be glad about. That's that, Ella
That day I had a feeling of sickness during the train ride to the hot springs and while my grandparents went on to soak in the pools, I took a walk by myself to consider my situation.
My period had not arrived for a long time, the nausea thing was not going away, there was something different, off. Like what women said they felt when they were like I was.
Pregnant for sure, I knew it. I figured I would be a great mom,
I loved playing with dolls and babies. No, I was not going to tell anyone that day, I concluded.
My belly would show and then they would know.
Good thing too because off course I was not even close to being pregnant, now I know.
My first period was one little spot of blood about 3 months earlier and then nothing.
I was having my first premenstrual experience, a shift in hormones, not a pregnancy, and since I sure did not know what was going on, I assumed that no period was a pregnancy, never mind that I was a virgin. I was nine and my periods had began light and infrequent. But before they got going regular I experienced nausea, headaches and confusing feelings before menstruation.
What was your first year of periods like? what happen?
Were you ready or did you think you were pregnant like me?
I can not possibly be the only girl that this happened to.
Best stupid than real because a pregnancy at nine is nothing to be glad about. That's that, Ella
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